Despair

Let me be honest
With myself
It’s only you
No one else
You swear the same
But I can’t really tell
Where are your thoughts
When you please
Yourself?

It’s you,
That I love
It’s you,
I don’t trust
And without that
Can there really
Be us?

It’s selfish
To ponder
For my mind
To wander
What you may
Be hiding
Beneath and under.

I just
Do not know
I just
Can’t let go
My mind it goes
To and fro.

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Empty

I picture us as glasses
Equally filled
Then me unto you
Myself I spilled.

Enamoured I was
In seeing you satiate
It brought me joy
To see you substantiate.

Always giving
I continued to pour
I permeated you
More and more.

One desolate day
I realised I was empty
I was bone dry
Whilst you had plenty.

But it was too late
I was incomplete
I had lost myself
And you had gained me.

Obstacle

Just let it go
It wasn’t meant to be
You gave it your all
And now it’s clear to see.

Accept it’s the end
You wasn’t good enough
You know they say life
Can sometimes be tough.

There’ll be ups
There’ll be downs
There’ll be smiles
No doubt there’ll be frowns.

You’ll get better
Like you always do
It’s just another obstacle
That you’ll get through.

Drained

Barely two decades
I’ve been in existence
Yet it seems like a lifetime
I’ve endured this distance.

It will get better
My heart will soon mend
And I promise myself
I won’t ever do this again.

The glass is now empty
I’m completely drained
I didn’t do anything wrong
Yet I’m the one feeling pain.

I just can’t fathom
Your repeated disrespect
I gave you all I could give
Something I now regret.

I gave you the world
I gave you everything
But it wasn’t enough
So I’ve got to spread my wings.

Work

Work to live
Live to die
Another forty years
Of nine to five?

Food,warmth shelter
None of that is free
Yet all of those things
I need to provide for me.

Trade your time
For dirty money
Forty hours a week
Doesn’t keep me comfy!

It’s dull; unfulfilling
It’s not my dream.
Permanently at the bottom
Of this pyramid scheme.

But I have no option
The chore, that is work
I have to accept my fate
No matter how hard it hurts.

A.K

Instantly we clicked
A match made in heaven
You and I were best friends
Starting in 2007.

Our random outings
Were always filled with laughter
Then later we’d reminisce
And giggle about it after.

We had our inside jokes
That nobody else understood
You got to know me in a way
That nobody else ever could.

You always picked me up
Whenever I was down
And as cliche as it is
You’d always transform my frown.

Then the day came
You had to up and leave
And I never told anybody
But I really did grieve.

Sometimes you’re in my dreams
I usually wake up in tears
Because that’s how much I miss you
And wish that you were still here.

I’m sure we’ll meet again
You’ll forever be my best friend
And even though we’re worlds away
I’ll love you ’til the very end.

LaLa Land

Lala Land; in others words
Deep inside my mind
Is the only place I look
And happiness I’ll find.

Summery long days
With sunshine so bright
Ending with twinkling stars
Alighting the pitch black night.

No such thing as worries
No problems or fears
And only from laughter
Will you ever find tears.

Flowers fully bloomed
Every colour so vivid
With a place so beautiful
How could one ever be livid?

Airy living spaces
Simplistic, clutter free
Deep inside my mind
Is definitely the place to be.