Casualty

We were shooting hoops
When the shooting occurred
It was a clear day
Then everything was blurred.

Right through his heart
The bullet pierced Jay
He didn’t deserve it
I tell myself every day.

His lifeless body lay
In blackcurrant red blood
The last sound I heard him make
Was his corpse going ‘thud’.

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Hypoxia

Can’t even sleep on it
That’s insomnia
Draining my life
Just like hypoxia.

I’ll tell the truth
But I need to think it through
Somewhere along the line
I fell out of love with you.

Go back to October sixteen
Hairline fracture
Jesus, please help me
Take me in the rapture.

The rug got higher
Uncomfortable to walk upon
I know you can’t feel it
But the mess isn’t gone.

I can’t take it back
I really can’t front
I have to be honest
But I don’t know what I want…

Indifferent

Truth be told
I’m no longer sad
I don’t feel to yell
Even though I’m mad.

I can’t answer
When I ask myself why
All I know now
Is I don’t even feel to cry.

Once was a time
My mind was blown
Didn’t want to leave
Now I’d rather be alone.

Keep your distance
Your hands to yourself
Lately I’d much rather
You touch somebody else.

Expect disappointment
One thing I learned
Set my expectations too high
Then I got burned.

Cold FoOd

I’m so tired
This shit is getting old
I just need to write
Fuck the food going cold.

I apologise; I’m vulgar
Stood high, stone cold walls
Money just called me up
Told me not to block his calls.

I’m tripping, no I’m not
I always feel regret.
Don’t do it, go ahead
You wanted to be the best.

Five bills, you’re crazy
You bet, the fuck, I’m mad
Dodged a loss right there
And truly I’m glad.

Despair

Let me be honest
With myself
It’s only you
No one else
You swear the same
But I can’t really tell
Where are your thoughts
When you please
Yourself?

It’s you,
That I love
It’s you,
I don’t trust
And without that
Can there really
Be us?

It’s selfish
To ponder
For my mind
To wander
What you may
Be hiding
Beneath and under.

I just
Do not know
I just
Can’t let go
My mind it goes
To and fro.

Empty

I picture us as glasses
Equally filled
Then me unto you
Myself I spilled.

Enamoured I was
In seeing you satiate
It brought me joy
To see you substantiate.

Always giving
I continued to pour
I permeated you
More and more.

One desolate day
I realised I was empty
I was bone dry
Whilst you had plenty.

But it was too late
I was incomplete
I had lost myself
And you had gained me.

Obstacle

Just let it go
It wasn’t meant to be
You gave it your all
And now it’s clear to see.

Accept it’s the end
You wasn’t good enough
You know they say life
Can sometimes be tough.

There’ll be ups
There’ll be downs
There’ll be smiles
No doubt there’ll be frowns.

You’ll get better
Like you always do
It’s just another obstacle
That you’ll get through.

Drained

Barely two decades
I’ve been in existence
Yet it seems like a lifetime
I’ve endured this distance.

It will get better
My heart will soon mend
And I promise myself
I won’t ever do this again.

The glass is now empty
I’m completely drained
I didn’t do anything wrong
Yet I’m the one feeling pain.

I just can’t fathom
Your repeated disrespect
I gave you all I could give
Something I now regret.

I gave you the world
I gave you everything
But it wasn’t enough
So I’ve got to spread my wings.

A.K

Instantly we clicked
A match made in heaven
You and I were best friends
Starting in 2007.

Our random outings
Were always filled with laughter
Then later we’d reminisce
And giggle about it after.

We had our inside jokes
That nobody else understood
You got to know me in a way
That nobody else ever could.

You always picked me up
Whenever I was down
And as cliche as it is
You’d always transform my frown.

Then the day came
You had to up and leave
And I never told anybody
But I really did grieve.

Sometimes you’re in my dreams
I usually wake up in tears
Because that’s how much I miss you
And wish that you were still here.

I’m sure we’ll meet again
You’ll forever be my best friend
And even though we’re worlds away
I’ll love you ’til the very end.