Poured my entire self
Into helping you
And in that process
I lost parts of me too.
I wanted to give in
I wanted to give up
Yet something inside
Just wouldn’t let me stop.
It told me you were different
You were unlike the rest
You were the one for me
That really was best.
At times I got frustrated
You just wouldn’t listen
So as a result of that
I created some distance.
It wasn’t just once
It wasn’t even twice
There were multiple occasions
Where you wasted my time.
It seemed you were ungrateful
For all the effort I put in
It felt you took me for granted
You didn’t care about a thing.
So I made myself scarce
For maybe a week or two
When I came to find out
Another girl was in your view.
The discovery saddened me
More so I was mad
I wanted no memories of you
So I tried to give back the bag.
I thought I’d be arrested
My temper I couldn’t control
And if I owned a gun
In your head there’d be a hole.
You couldn’t even explain
What you said made no sense
You lied to me repeatedly
As if I was dense.
Which just upset me further
All trust in you was lost
I doubted everything you ever said
Now my heart’s as cold as frost.
You enjoyed the attention
You boasted to your friend
All because you thought
I’d be there till the end.
I really tried my best with you
Though inadequate were my attempts
So now I’ll give myself the world
Until my heart’s content.
To know my best wasn’t enough
My time and effort was a waste
Leaves me feeling disappointed
And wanting memories erased.